Like the first day of school, I woke up hours before my alarm went off. Thoughts of prep were the first to run through my brain: peeling potatoes, washing lettuce, chopping those damn carrots…what the hell am I going to be doing today? I guess if I knew, the anticipation would not be as fun. The great news is that they are completely unaware of the kitchen disasters that I have been affiliated with…(mainly the disasters from the last few months)…. PHEWWWWW! One positive start for the day.
As you may of guessed my adventure and pursuit of a new career begins today!!! It’s officially my first day in the kitchen at Patina—highly regarded Michelin Star Restaurant. If you know me, you would know that I am a nervous wreck!!! I hate to fail and I am a perfectionist. Being brand new at something, inevitably means that failure will be a part of the journey…scary right?!? It’s not to say I’m not beyond exhilarated to be in the kitchen, it’s that I have no idea what to expect. I’m sure it’s the same for everyone…not knowing what lies can be frightening…so, I spent last night trying to focus on what I could control: Organizing and Drinking. I organized my necessities for the following day after having numerous carafes of sangria with good friends. Whomever says alcohol does not help, must’ve never had a drink!!!!!! A few glasses of tasty sangria was just what was needed to help me wrangle my chef coat, pants, shoes, copy of their menus, knife kit, note pad, and pen. Everything is piled neatly on my suitcase awaiting my day ahead, much like the first day of school, when one lies out their new outfit for the next day. I’ll admit it, the thought crosses my mind….”Will they like me?”, again, much like the first day….
All in all it’s not going to make a damn difference whether or not they like me, or whether or not I look the part in the kitchen… What will matter is my drive, my character, my persistence, and most importantly, my ability to minimize MY fuckups in THEIR kitchen.
So, I’m off to get in a few more hours of menu studying prior to my noon showtime….one thought in mind: do not fuck up.